He could explains life, but not his own. He wanted to save lives of others, but he failed and even worse, with cost of another's and his own. He proved the truth like this: it's not the "it" that you want, it's the fantasy of "it" that you want.
Kenny Rogers《从镜子看我是怎么进去》: If you're gonna play the game, boy, you gotta learn to play it right. You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away and know when to run. Cause every hand's a winner and every hand's a loser.